Undoit!

    You were so special to me once. You made me believe in myself. You made me believe in miracles. You were my world. I lost myself  in you. But it was all a lie. You said you loved me right up to the end. But you don't know what love is. I guess you never loved me. Really you never loved yourself, so how could you love someone else. We have over eighteen years of memories together. I guess they don't mean anything either. You said you were my best friend...another lie. Friends don't treat each other the way you've treated me. You've made all these years a lie. What I thought my life to be never really existed, did it?
         You've threatened, bullied, and tried to take advantage of me. You think that because I loved you, you can  get away with it. Well, you are wrong! Yes, I loved you. But not anymore! How could I love someone that has done all of this to me? On top of it all, you're trying to take my son from me, turn him against me.
           My kids are the only thing that I am thankful for out of all of these years. You have made me a stronger person because of everything you have put me through and for that I thank you. As for the rest of it...

                                  I WANT TO UNDO IT! I want to forget I ever saw your face, heard your voice, or ever loved you!  The person that I knew is dead!


"I call upon the powers that be
to undo this wrong and set me free.
Please let both of my children live with me permanately
and he reap what he's sown 3x3
So mote it be."

Orion's Gift

                                     I knew from the start when I carried you inside of me that you were  special. I could feel you doing flips, cartwheels, and maybe dancing too. You were so energetic! When you were little, your eyes would light up every time you smiled. You had  such a great love for life! You were such a spirited child. You really kept me on my toes. Yes, there were times when I didn't know if I could make it through your toddler years. But we made it through...both of us. I realize that you are a little different. But that makes you who you are and that's o.k.
         A mother's love grows over the years for her children. She cheers their accomplishments, helps them learn from their mistakes. She tries to protect them and do what is best for them always. She never stops loving them no matter what they do. She grieves for them when they are gone from her too long. That is just the way a mother's love works.
       I want you to know that you may not believe it, but you are becoming a talented young man. You have the ability to make people laugh and have fun with life. You have a talent for fixing things and that is a handy talent to have. You are very smart. Don't ever forget that. You have the ability to be anything you want to be someday. Don't ever think you can't.

    We were a family of four not that long ago. Yes, things changed. But   we are still a family.  Each member of a family brings a different piece to that unit. Kind of like pieces of a puzzle fitting together. When you are gone, it feels wrong...You bring an energy, an enthusiasm, and yes a certain  spirit that doesn't exist when you are not here. I miss you very much. Always remember, you are special. You  are wanted and you are loved.